I'm HUNdred times better :)

Bugger off

2012-01-26T06:44:00.001+08:00

Darling I am nothing like your ordinary girl.

I can leave guy I dated for almost three years over flirty messages cos he broke my three simple rules, if you think I'm gonna bear with ur shitty nonsense kau dah boleh pergi mampus. When I say I would hang up, I mean it. And yes, you are nothing to me weh, jangan perasan sangat

Clueless.

2011-12-05T23:55:00.001+08:00

I lost my laptop. Some maniac broke into our place while everyone was out that night. Weird thing is he only took shen and my laptop and things he shouldn't take.

Anyway, I miss my laptop already. Its leopard-ish keyboard frame, its 6gb ram and a virus free laptop. I'm practising certain doa after solat which said that the owner might get their stolen stuffs back, if Allah wills.

I hope it's my rezq to get it back. After all, its the laptop that ayah bought for me when i got a good result. Hmm not to mention the warranty is still valid.

Pls, pray for me.

Soo...

2011-11-25T00:52:00.001+08:00

Yes you can still see us together, but that does not mean that we are 'romantically' together. We just took a step back and be fake siblings again.

Like how we used to. After all, he knows me better than anyone else and vice versa.

Friends

2011-11-18T00:08:00.001+08:00

So they say if they were me they would be crying their heart out by now. Question is, how do you know I didn't?

After all silence is a girl's loudest cry isn't it.

A promise

2011-11-16T12:45:00.001+08:00

I once made a promise to myself. I think it's about time.

Hartanah di Penang

2011-11-15T01:10:00.001+08:00

Since we are getting older maybeyou guys mula fikir nak kumpul harta kan? If you are thinking about kumpulkereta then obviously itu keputusan yang salah sebab harga kereta turun dan taknaik-naik. So, pilihan yang bagus masih lagi untuk melabur duit dekat hartanahdisebabkan harga yang menaik setiap tahun.

Jadi, bila korang dah decideuntuk melabur dalam hartanah, be smart untuk pilih lokasi hartanah juga.Penting untuk anda tahu nilai hartanah yang akan anda beli dan potensi tempat. Inthis case, I akan pilih Penang since Penang semakin pesat maju dengan pembangunannya.

Soooooo, as usual untuk memudahkan hidup andaI akan share satu lagi website dari Malaysia iaitu Propwall. Sekarang, anda takperlu lagi pergi jauh untuk mencari hartanah di Penang. Klik pada link yangdisediakan dan mula mencari hartanah yang anda mahu!

Seperti website lain yang Ipernah share, Propwall sangat user-friendly. Contoh, bila anda mencari hartanahdi bawah kawasan Penang, Propwall menyediakan pautan-pautan kawasan yang beradadi dalam Penang seperti Bukit Jambul, Seberang Perai dan Georgetown. Selepasmemilih kawasan yang anda suka, anda boleh pilih sama ada hartanah yang andacari itu sama ada untuk dibeli atau hanya untuk disewa.

Dari situ anda boleh mula memilihberdasarkan keluasan rumah, jenis rumah seperti apartmen, teres dan sebagainya.Kondisi rumah juga boleh dilihat melalui gambar-gambar yang telah disediakanoleh tuan rumah di website Propwall. Selain itu, antara features yang I foundit different dari website lain ialah setiap area yang anda click akan beri andamaklumat lengkap tentang kawasan itu termasuklah analisis bagi kawasan itu.Bagi sesetengah kawasan, ia disertakan juga dengan market trend kawasantersebut.

There there, banyak maklumat yanganda boleh dapat tentang hartanah di Penang tanpa perlu pergi ke sana kan. Start dengan klik link di atas!

Salazar

2011-11-14T23:27:00.001+08:00

My phone is baaack!

CariBilik is now known as iBilik

2011-08-08T22:41:00.001+08:00

If you guys are aware, a few months back I have written about CariBilik website which I had used to search for affordable rooms during the holiday season right? There is no doubt that it had make my life easier. Anyway, recently the website had changed its name from Caribilik to iBilik. Well, I personally like the new name better since it sounded way better and things that started with “i” is always cooler. Think iphone, lol.

Since the website has a new name, I decide to look around the site to see if the website had been revamped or anything like that but to me, it is almost the same as before. For me, it is a good thing since the website is very user-friendly. Everything is organized, users could use the search engine for a faster and more accurate result while those who have all the time in the world (like myself) could go through the rooms one by one or based on the location that the rooms or houses in iBilik are grouped in.

When I was going through the site, the first thing that popped out my mind is this website is so gonna make Uitm students’ life easier. Imagine finding a house to rent and even housemates in a website which is specialized only for that purpose. Screw Mudah, try iBilik (when you are finding properties to rent, though). Just take a look at the screenshot below, I only need to type Uitm shah alam and get the result within minute. The next thing I have to do is ring up the tenant to see whether the room are still available.

So, Caribilik or iBilik, it makes your life way easier so visit the site now now now! Ooh and recently, iBilik goes social by creating their Tumblr account so go and follow them for updates!

>.<

2011-08-03T04:58:00.001+08:00

Chinese eyes, my biggest weakness.

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Geddit?

2011-07-09T01:33:00.001+08:00

I don't get it why I need a night light at the age of 21 when all this while I was trained to sleep with all the lights off.

Maybe my imagination is getting wilder.

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I need time.

2011-07-05T05:04:00.001+08:00

Kalau tak kenal macamana nak cinta en?

So give me time to get to know more about you before proceeding to the next level.

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2011-07-01T02:00:00.001+08:00

What is this that I am feeling honey?

I am fearless tra-la-la-la!

2011-06-28T17:16:00.000+08:00

When I was 7, my favorite game was Barbie and the magical house and Sheila Rae the brave. So today, I searched the net just in case I can find a torrent for any of the game but nada :( Anyway, found some of Sheila Rae singalong on Youtube and omgah sumpah rindu. Can't they remake the gameeee please?

Truth

2011-06-22T06:35:00.001+08:00

I have no problem w motocross, I just have problems with you joining it.

Cos I love you and I don't want any new scratches on you. God why is that so hard to understand.

We all know why I don't like bikes and when it comes to the one I love it'll never change. Same goes to you, you'll never change.

I still hate it when you join, always will and nothing will change that.

Relieved.

2011-06-18T02:33:00.001+08:00

After a very long wait, I finally gt my results!

I must say, it was worth the wait. I get the number I need to get my cgpa back on track if I want that overseas internship, not the number I expected though.

During semester one I gt a dl, but I was not entirely proud of it since it was the exact same number I gt when I was in first semester of diploma and I only took four subjects at that time. Semester two, I screwed up. Last semester, I have to say that I'm proud of myself and friends. Our late night study group have paid off, waking up early morning to revise as well. Three of us succesfully gt into the list and the others passes without any repeats at all.

I must say I am relieveddd, since now I not only have to show my results to Ayah, but I have to submit my current results to nstp as well.

I hope I'll continue being a nerd next semester, I really want the internship.

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2011-06-15T19:44:00.001+08:00

I have the best, but due to certain logical reasons I can't keep it.

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Well, do you?

2011-06-08T02:08:00.001+08:00

Do you like it b?
B do you like it?
Do you like it?
Really b do you like the changes?

I don't give a fuck.
I don't even notice the changes.

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Babbles

2011-06-04T02:34:00.002+08:00

I miss the time when the guy I love randomly calls just to hear my voice, tell me he misses me, or just to sing 'Have I told you lately that i love you' when I was only 2 hours away from him that weekend.

And you, I still remember the first day we were together. You called just to say goodnight, yeah how sweet. Sadly now it turns out that you'll call only when you needed something.

Now that I am more mature, I am beginning to understand why I keep my relationship short before, cos if you're with the same person for too long, you just forget. The sparks are gone.

Everything eventually becomes a routine and you will not be able to differentiate between needs and wants anymore. That's what I usually found on the next guy that the previous one doesn't, the sparks. It wasn't getting bored of the same person, just getting too familiar with the routine. Like it is normal for your girl to say that she needs to talk to you, she needs you or she need help. You know it's gonna be just the normal stuffs so you choose to ignore cos it has been part of your fucking routine.

Now help me understand why I am stuck with the same guy for more than two years. Is it me getting older?

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Perfect timing

2011-06-03T04:18:00.001+08:00

Some guys really know when to contact the girl. Heh.

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CariBilik Penang Homestays

2011-05-25T03:57:00.002+08:00

As you all know, it’s the holiday season! Anyways, my girls and I are planning on a short vacation during the holiday and some of the places we considered includes Penang and Langkawi. Penang, for its delicious and cheap delicacies while Langkawi for its tax free country. We might consider going to both places though, we will see how the cash flows this month shall we?

First thing first when we are going on vacation, being girls, the accommodation is always the main concern. Of course, staying in 5-star hotels means unquestionable comforts and safe while a cheap motel might result to uneasy feelings about the doors being smashed any minutes or the feeling that the toilet might be haunted and things like that. However, there are other options beside hotels and cheap motel, which is the homestays. If we actually decide to go to Penang, there are easy solutions to find accommodation, which is the Homestay site. The websites includes other countries in Malaysia such as Melaka and even Sabah Sarawak too, but since we might go to Penang now let it be our main focus.

When surfing the website, I clicked on Penang as the location and wow it provides link to Penang short rentals to make it easy for us to decide on our lodgings for the vacation! On its down left of the page, you can choose the location you wish to stay and from there it will show you all the results you want. Results will include room for rent, flats for rent and even bungalows to be rented out for the tourist at reasonable prices. Other than that, CariBilik website is thoughtful enough to let the advertiser uploaded a whole bunch of photos for the viewers to review before deciding whether or not they want to stay there. Plus, for every advertisement there will be descriptions that will be filled by the advertisers and it usually includes the facilities, room’s conditions and the rental fees they are charging for the accommodation advertised. There are also maps and directions attached to every single advertisement to make it trouble-free for the viewers to find the place. I don’t know about you, but this is certainly a vacation sticky website for me from now on!

So why not make your lodging-hunting easier by clicking on the link above?

Random

2011-05-19T05:02:00.001+08:00

I still think it's funny for guys to major in any masscommunication sequence. Lol and my boyfriend is one of them :D

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2011-05-16T22:46:00.001+08:00

Justin Bieber and rascal Flatts?!

Damn you Bieber.

Little girls can be sweet at times

2011-05-16T14:50:00.001+08:00

"You're not just any girl, you're his girlfriend."

Aww baby you're sweet but I am not his girl.

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It's 3PM

2011-05-12T15:06:00.000+08:00

I haven't had my breakfast or lunch and I'm hungry.

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Beginning.

2011-05-12T02:13:00.001+08:00

So it's the beginning of the superlong holiday. I'm relieved to finally have a taste of freedom after 6 burdening papers especially statistics which i can't answer. I just hope that it won't affect my grade so much :'(

Anyway, nstp had choosen their scholars my brother and I was shortlisted. I am proud of myself, knowing that I'm not that good in education but maybe it's my articles that booked me a place in the final selection. Well thats one good news. Another one, earlier this morning my favourite lecturer called and she offered me a job as a public relation trainee during an event. That is like a dream comes true since I've been telling everyone that I want to work as a pr or part of event team and tadaaa I got it! Talk about being lucky ehh.

So yeah that's it I should sleep now and prepare for my very first day tomorrow. Wish me luck!

Disappointing.

2011-05-02T04:59:00.001+08:00

I was about to sleep but I suddenly remembered about something that I haven't shared with anyone and it's really bothering me.

I'm the kind of person that values my gadgets and I take care of them, not in a very girly way but yes up until now I've never lost any phones or anything but last week I lost my dslr.

It's very disappointing when Ayah and I searched for Mark for a few months before buying it and yeah we paid over 2k for it and now it's lost. The camera wasn't under my care when it was lost and it is really disappointing that he doesn't even know where or when the camera is gone. Maybe it's gone for good or maybe he misplaced it somewhere inside the house but still.

He said he's gonna replace it tapi macam senang2 je kan T.T

Okay three posts in one night, blame the caffeine and comm theory.

Gender differences.

2011-05-02T03:38:00.001+08:00

If he's really mine, show me. If he's not then I'm okay with it. Cos You know better what's good for us.

There are few things that we can't solve, there are tonnes of things we do not talk about. If that's how it really should be I'll accept it but I've always hate it to hear it from others rather than he himself. People look at me as a bad girlfriend, very ignorant when sometimes I don't know what he's planning to do, where he is and etc but maybe that's just how I am. I do not question, you tell me or I'll find out myself and I do not wait for peole to ask, I'll talk whenever I want to.

True though, men and women do communicate differently just like my family and gender's report finding.

Rugby players

2011-05-02T02:38:00.001+08:00

Now I know perfectly well why I'm always attracted to them. :)

Betul la orang kata

2011-04-19T20:03:00.002+08:00

Lelaki dengan perempuan susah nak kawan rapat without involving any feelings.

Reaching the end.

2011-03-21T05:48:00.001+08:00

Things happened, leaving me furious with some of the group-mates which doesn't seems to care and some who sent me a perfectly plagiarized report of his part. Yeah, I wonder how he did his individual assignments and still surviving this degree-hell.

Ohh did I tell you that I have interpersonal communication subject this semester? It is by far my favourite subject ever. If your course have an elective for this subject please choose interpersonal comm as one of your elective. It is very interesting, no kidding. Now that I have learned a whole lot of interpersonal communication, the processes, barriers and etc I am always embarrassed with myself when I failed to communicate (which happens all the time). Sometimes when I am in Melati and still wide awake at night I often read back my inbox and analyze the way I talk to people especially my beruang. Few weeks back yes whenever I found myself stupidly communicate I apologized to some people haha without telling them what I am sorry for and every day I'll try to improve the way I talk to people. I still can't help it that I'm rougher than the average girls though. Sorry guys.

Anywaaaaays, it is reaching the end. I have done nada Interpersonal Club's committee job, I need to prepare an event proposal for the academic bureau but that will be due early next semester so yes, I can write a sentence a day during the four months. Yay? True but since I was the vice secretary (is there such position?) for the ad hoc committee for Inc annual sports day, I have to do the report. Not that I'm complaining but yes, when the secretary asked me to write the report she did use some words which I was a tad not comfortable with. Which is clearly a misunderstanding. That is why it is always better to have a verbal communication instead of the goddam text messaging service.

Orangensaft? (Orange juice lol)

Can't wait for the semester break though I despise the four-months "vacation" which will obviously make me broke. I want to find a job, but this time I want a course related job like a public relation trainee or anything like that. At least I would establish connections and starts gaining experience. Doubt that I'll get anything like though, might end up jumping from one flea market to another with rainbow cakes and ClothEmpire stuffs or being a part time writer, still not attached with any company or even a promoter with fckg high pay compared to the other jobs above, enough to cover my expenses for the whole four month. I don't know, we'll see if my rezeki is towards course related job (which I want real bad), any other job I did before or even a new experience, I really don't mind.

I guess that's all for my random rambling session tonight. I'm just scared that in the future I won't be able to remember all this. So yeaah future Hun, when you're reading this. This is the night when you gt so stressed up doing your group's Citu's assignment. xx

Sayang, I miss you.

2011-03-16T02:14:00.000+08:00

I really really do, perfection. I hope you'll meet me this Ramadhan.

So it has been a hectic semester, there's submission for almost every week and presentations to be done. I have my own laptop now and I traded my iphone for this shitty bb few days back. With boyfriend not full utilizing his blackberry I don't see the point of using it. Not a bold 2 at least. Just realize that I prefer game to people lol but no worries I'll get an iphone back in this few months time.

I am not feeling well, I'm having a flu due to two days in a row running through the rain only in my geeky sweater without an umbrella. Yeah that's it, I'm signing off now I have German hearing test at 8. Goodnight x

Degree

2011-02-12T01:09:00.001+08:00

Sumpah penat.

2011-02-10T13:03:00.000+08:00

I think the coolest day of the week is on language day. You can come to the cafe and see how we greet and struggled to talk to each other. From german to arab, mandarin to japanese and etc. Semua dah macam ayam dengan itik.

Second year in Interpersonal Communication

2011-01-31T22:21:00.000+08:00

Yet I still don't know why I choose that sequence instead of the others.
Anyways, I'm in my second year now. Only one credit exemption from diploma and things are getting way tougher :'( But it's okay, I know I will be able to gt through this.

Moving on to financing news haha, Shen and I gt shortlisted from the preliminary stage to selection stage which was held last Wednesday. Tiba-tiba while waiting for the selection interview, dapat taw that if we manage to gt through that, the final stage will be held later at 3pm. On the very same day. Gila. The selection interview went smoothly for me, the interviewers were all male. Quite strict, but they sure have their soft side too! So basically the interview was fun and both of us made it to the final stage. After a loooooooooot of waiting later, the final stage started. I have to admit the final stage was tough, the Human Capital women, Pn Badariah was nice but since it was the final stage there was a lot of pressure and we had to elaborate on certain topic. My topic was fcking simple, not the kind of topic you would want in a final stage of an interview cos there's nothing exactly you can elaborate on it. So, for now, I really don't know what to hope for. Of course I want the scholarship but based on the final stage interview, let's just not hope for anything -_-

Anyway, I just have to say that being in the NSTP building itself was an experience I wouldn't wanna trade. The place is super conducive, matched with its mission and the interview had surely improve my interpersonal skills I would say. Mainly cos I figured out, from 200 people during the preliminary stage being shortlisted to 17 people, there must be something that I can contribute to the company and since I'm already in the second stage, afraid or not I just have to brace myself and face the interviewer. Which I did, I talk confidently, I made eye contacts and I did the firm handshake thingy. Haha. And it had somehow affect my presentation skills too! The next day after the interview, I had to prepare for a presentation on Marketing Public Relation. Honestly, I wasn't prepared since I had too many things going on for that week but somehow I wear my confident mask and talk like I mean it and surprisingly, that was the first time during my individual presentation, few people cm to me during break time and posted on my wall post saying "Good presentation" and "You have improve a lot"

So yeah, whatever the result is, there's nothing I could change dah kan. I just have to say, Dato' Anthony Bujang, the CEO of NSTP is supernice, I love him already!:D

NSTP Scholarship Awards

2010-12-15T08:55:00.000+08:00

So yes, it's happening tomorrow. Both my brother and I gt shortlisted but his interview is today while mine is tomorrow morning. I'm dead nervous now, seriously T.T

Cari kereta di Malaysia?

2010-12-13T02:14:00.002+08:00

Kuala lumpur International Motor Show (KLIMS) telah berlangsung dari 3 Disember yang lepas sehingga hari ini jadi mesti ramai yang telah mengunjungi bangunan yang sesak tu kan? Bagi yang tidak sempat pergi ke KLIMS 2010, jangan risau jika anda masih boleh cari kereta di Malaysia dengan mudah. Jika dulu anda bersusah-payah beli surat khabar dan majalah kereta, sekarang anda boleh mencari kereta secara online sahaja!

Terdapat banyak laman web online yang telah direka sejak akhir-akhir ini sama ada untuk menjual barang-barang terpakai, telefon bimbit dan juga kereta seperti mudah.my tetapi sekarang aku nak fokus kepada website yang menjual kereta sahaja. Yeah, sekarang semua tengah sibuk mencari kereta pertama kan bagi peringkat umur aku? Untuk jimat duit dan lebih environmental friendly, google Carsifu.my atau klik link di bawah untuk cari kereta pilihan anda.

Laman web kereta Carsifu.my ialah sebuah website yang berfungsi sebagai platform yang memudahkan pengguna-pengguna internet untuk mencari kereta sama ada mereka berada di negeri yang sama atau tidak. Terdapat banyak jenis kereta yang diiklankan di Carsifu.my dari kereta-kereta mewah seperti BMW, Volkswagen, dan Mercedes hingga kereta yang mampu dimiliki seperti Proton dan Perodua. Bagi setiap profil kereta yang diiklankan oleh pengguna website tersebut, terdapat maklumat-maklumat penting seperti deskripsi penting tentang kereta, spesifikasi, tahun dan maklumat penjual bagi memudahkan perhubungan.

Sehingga sekarang, terdapat 1494 buah kereta untuk dijual di Carsifu.my. Bagi anda yang masih mencari kereta, kenapa tidak melawati laman web kereta ini dan jimatkan masa dan tenaga anda sekarang!

I miss my old self.

2010-09-30T00:37:00.002+08:00

Jalang.

2010-09-17T00:00:00.000+08:00

Imaginasi kau dah melampau sangat.

Sedar sikit you're the main problem, bukan orang lain sebab tu tak kira mana kau pergi kau ada masalah dengan orang. Kawan2 kau ada sekarang, heh kalau tahan lama pun sebab kau ada kepentingan yang satu tu.

Mulut kau macam sial do, tolong la berambus.

2010-09-03T21:29:00.000+08:00

"mudah, sebenarnya, untuk buat sang perempuan tidak pergi.
kenapa perempuan suka lari2?

sebab sunyi.

maka jangan bagi dia sunyi. jangan bagi peluang pada sunyi untuk singgah dalam hatinya. agama kita sudah berkali2 pesan, seboleh2nya, jangan ditinggal2 isteri berlama2. sunyi adalah musuh utama perempuan. kalau kau masih terang ingatnya pada kisah hawa, ingatlah: ketika sunyilah si iblis datang dan membubuh cerita dalam kepala hawa.

perempuan ini fitrahnya tidak suka disendiri. ya, mulut mereka mungkin mengaku mampu dan gagah. tapi itulah dia. perempuan hidupnya perlu ada peneman gundah."

Fynn.

2010-08-31T01:08:00.000+08:00

Skipped doctor's appointment today to do a blood test since I think it's ridiculous that she suspected me with arthritis even before she heard the whole problem. Plus I hate going to the clinic to do the blood test ALONE since there's no one there to teman me. I might just wait for two weeks and consult Dr Allan again.

Went to the class dengan niat hanya untuk menjawab quiz and trust me I wasn't there for long. Gt a call from Shen even before I finished my essay asking me to go home because Ibu just got robbed. Bodoh gila kan bulan puasa pun nak buat jahat apa masalah diorg ni tah? Terus balik since I didn't know the whole story and there's a few cases that involved the criminal threatening the victim with knife and whatever few months back so I was dead scared. Luckily in Ibu's case they just smashed the window and took the handbag without realizing that Ibu was holding her phone and her purse was somewhere under/around the bag so nothing really important got stolen. Reaching home with all your family and close friends car parked outside with police patrol car right in front of the house is not what I want to come home to in the future. Scary bodo.

What type of girl are you?

2010-08-30T03:42:00.003+08:00

Materialistic vs. Romantic vs. Realistic

Where is the difference?

Well, materialistic obviously is about women (I talk from woman's perspective) who only cares about the bling or at least materials.... which is the complicated word for money. Materialistic women's dream are to find stupid rich guys and most of these women don't care if these stupid rich guys are married/single/teen/old/really old. They also don't care if these guys don't have that perfect hair/body/face. What they do care is how thick the guys' wallet is and how much they're willing to spend on women. Because guys who don't have the face/body/personality but have money tend to get desperate and don't care about how much money they spend for their women as long as they got them a woman.

Beautiful and sexy women, usually. For them, more money = more love. On dates, these women will never...repeat.. NEVER spend their money (obviously enough because their guys will pay for all the expenses including the women's shopping bags). This type of materialistic women are usually the popular ones. You usually can find this type when you see a standard-beautiful women with thick make-up and wearing full branded accessories and clothes.

While romantic is for women who can only dream of a prince charming.

This type of women is the opposite of the materialistic one because romantic women are usually care about the personality of their guys. How sweet/nice/romantic the guys are. Unfortunately, this type of women is the ones who tend to get heart broken because they expect too much from their guys. Romantic women don't care how poor they will be if they marry their guys who's really sweet and nice and romantic but not that smart. What important for them is the love part. How much love the guys can give to them. On dates, same with the materialistic type, the romantic women expect that their dates will be paid by the guys, but they're rarely ask their guys to pay for their clothes. Maybe you heard stories about how rich women ended with a poor guy, well.. they are the examples of this type. You can find these women when you see women who stand by their guys' side even when the things get really tough since the beginning (ie. no decent house, no decent food) while the guys don't do anything about it. They are the ones who often say that "love is blind" or "love makes you stupid."

The last one is the realistic, which is the ones who don't agree with either materialistic women or romantic women. Because they know that money can't buy you happiness, but love can't give you food and the things you need. The realistic usually try to find decent smart guys with some money, not poor and not too rich (because the too-rich guys tend to choose the materialistic women). What they want in guys are their willing to work hard, to give some love (but not too much) and to balance things out. On dates, this type will also try to balance things. If their guys pay for movie, then dinner is on them and vice versa. They will be very upset if somehow these realistic women ended with materialistic guys because it's never a good match.

When realistic combine with romantic, they will stand by their guys side even if they know they're going to have a really tough life AS LONG AS they're sure that their guys will at least try to turn things up. If they realize then that their guys are as lazy as a donkey, they will leave them right that second.

In some special cases, you can find a woman who is usually a materialistic type now turns into romantic type. But it's really rare, that's why they covered it by saying "It's true love."

2010-08-30T02:43:00.001+08:00

Belajar cara pegang aku, just like the way he did.
He knew perfectly well how to handle me, that's why we haven't spent even one day apart until the day his time on earth expired.

We could work things out but I don't see the point of being with someone that cannot imagine his future with me. It's true that marriage is far ahead but it would be good to know that I will be the one you want to come home to. It's okay, though. Maybe it proves that our first decision was right after all.

Tolong pulangkan balik hati saya?

Annoying semua ni.

2010-08-24T07:06:00.002+08:00

I have lots of things I wanted to share but maybe right now I'm still looking for the right person to actually listen and help. I'm in confusion, which leads me to one thing I hated the most, being indecisive and some people that are being too pushy is not helping either. Stop, asking me out. Stop, trying to get my attention. Stop, badmouthing my ex. That should be my job not yours.

The pins and needles sensation annoys me and sometimes it hurts so much :( Went to the clinic for check up yesterday and was hoping I would get Dr. Allan Boscow or Dr. Rasul rather than the other doctor since for me he is not much of a help, and he only give me 5flu pills the last time I was having a fever. That's like....two days of supply? How was I suppose to recover laa lilke that -_- Anyway, my hands doesn't hurt that much when I was otw there but learning from the previous night experience, I really don't wanna spend another sleepless night in pain so I thought might just give it a shot and talk to the doctor about it. Went there and yay Dr Allan was in so I told him everything and I told him I wasn't feeling anything at that time so he took both of my hands, bend it and oh wow the numbness and pin and needles is back. So he said it's most probably because of my nerve system is compressed somewhere around the wrist but he added that it could also be carpal tunnel but he's not too sure since it's too early to tell. He then give me medication that will stimulate my nerve system and asked me to feel which part of my hands that hurts the most. If it's anywhere in the thumb, point finger, middle finger and half of ring finger then it's carpal tunnel and he's gonna have to refer me to the hand specialist. Not forgetting that his way of explaining the nerve system is very cute too! Haha. The pinky, and the other half of the ring finger is not affected because it's connected to a different "wires" and carpal tunnel's patients won't feel any pain at the wide area below to the thumb because the carpal tunnel wires split there and make a circle there. Carpal tunnel is actually very common nowadays yeah and excessive usage of laptop and putting too much pressure on your wrist could cause this too so please use the armrest to avoid cts.. Haha. See how much info I can get from him? Doubt that the other doctor would explain this much to me.

Anyway that was just something I wanted you people to know. At least with all his explanation yesterday, I know mine is NOT cts since when it started to hurt it involves all of my fingers so it is not likely cts. No injection, no scary surgery I saw on youtube*puke*! :D

Carpal tunnel syndrome ke?

2010-08-23T03:56:00.000+08:00

Sakit tangan for almost a week now.
Traditional massage doesn't work, painkiller doesn't work. Guess I reeeeeeeeeally have to go to the clinic and risking getting a shot.

It really doesn't matter now, tak tahan sangat sakit :(

It's not a bird, not a plane.

2010-08-22T14:34:00.000+08:00

That's my heart and it's going, gone away.
Only now I understand why I only dated people less than three months in the past.

Comel je.

2010-08-18T16:55:00.001+08:00

Maaf ye, tak tahu penulis asal.

Di saat

Disaat kamu ingin melepaskan seseorang
ingatlah pada saat kamu ingin mendapatkannya

Disaat kamu mulai tidak mencintainya
ingatlah saat pertama kamu jatuh cinta padanya

Disaat kamu mulai bosan dengannya
ingatlah selalu saat terindah bersamanya

Disaat kamu ingin menduakannya
bayangkan jika dia selalu setia

Saat kamu ingin membohonginya
ingatlah disaat dia jujur padamu

Maka kamu akan merasakan arti dia untukmu
Jangan sampai disaat dia sudah tidak disisimu,
Kamu baru menyadari semua arti dirinya untukmu

Yang indah hanya sementara
Yang abadi adalah kenangan
Yang ikhlas hanya dari hati
Yang tulus hanya dari sanubari

Tidak mudah mencari yang hilang
Tidak mudah mengejar impian

Namun yg lebih susah mempertahankan yg ada
Karena walaupun tergenggam bisa terlepas juga
Ingatlah pada pepatah, "Jika kamu tidak memiliki apa yang kamu sukai, maka sukailah apa yang kamu miliki saat ini"

Belajar menerima apa adanya dan berpikir positif
Hidup bagaikan mimpi, seindah apapun,
begitu bangun semuanya sirna tak berbekas
Rumah mewah bagai istana, harta benda yang tak terhitung, kedudukan, dan jabatan yg luar biasa, namun..

Ketika nafas terakhir tiba, sebatang jarum pun tak bisa dibawa pergi
Sehelai benang pun tak bisa dimiliki
Apalagi yang mau diperebutkan
Apalagi yang mau disombongkan

Maka jalanilah hidup ini dengan keinsafan nurani
Jangan terlalu perhitungan
Jangan hanya mau menang sendiri
Jangan suka sakiti sesama apalagi terhadap mereka yang berjasa bagi kita
Belajarlah tiada hari tanpa kasih
Selalu berlapang dada dan mengalah
Hidup ceria, bebas leluasa

Tak ada yang tak bisa di ikhlaskan
Tak ada sakit hati yang tak bisa dimaafkan
Tak ada dendam yang tak bisa terhapus.

2010-08-16T19:11:00.001+08:00

اَللَّّهُمَّ لَيِّنْ لِيْ قَلْبَهُ لَيِّنْتَ لِدَاْوُدَ الْحَدِيدْ

"Ya Allah, lembutkanlah hatinya sebagaimana Kamu melembutkan Daud (akan) besi"

Found the Doa pelembut hati.
Help me memorize this will you? :)

Helloo world!

2010-08-16T18:36:00.000+08:00

Just a little friendly reminder.
If anytime of this month that I get veryy cranky, snapped at you for no specific reason and ignore anyone of you please forgive me in advance.

These few days had been hard. The fasting month, the dehydration, the piling assignment, the weather, the annoying cat and the aging body is driving me crazy. :(

It ends at almost 18.

2010-08-11T23:04:00.002+08:00

For more than one year waking up with a good morning wishes, I know tomorrow's not going to be the same.
It's not what I wanted, but it's what would make you happy.

Kaki dah mula sejuk but I hate it when things fall apart, I still can't snuggle into my blanket and cry cos I just have to fucking prepare for tomorrow's quiz.

Dah, jom beli King and lose ourselves in it.

Boo

2010-08-11T11:42:00.001+08:00

Can I have a car and never ending cash flow please?

2010-08-11T06:30:00.001+08:00

Keras hati aku dah datang balik, dah perlu sangat dekatkan diri dengan Allah. Please don't let my logic takes over, please don't turn me to that person I once had been.

Happy Ramadhan.

2010-08-10T22:30:00.001+08:00

It's that time of the year again, Happy Ramadhan people. Have a good one!
Can't wait to meet certain people again, I'll be waiting. :)

Seventeen, well and a half.

2010-07-30T22:48:00.000+08:00

Hello, love.
It's your ubat writing. Remember how you used to say that I'm your ubat cos I cure whatever sakit you were having? I miss that.

While I was playing with Bulat just now, it kind of remind me of our hamster. Remember how we used to meet every day and bring them jalan-jalan around the tasik in Melaka campus? I miss that.

From meeting everyday to meeting each other only twice or thrice a month is hard. I need you, I miss you so much, I can't wait for you to continue your degree here with me. Thank you for dealing with my tantrums.

Happy seventeen months and a half, love.
:')

Rough.

2010-07-30T04:36:00.004+08:00

It's 4.30am, I have class at 8am and I am still up, finally updating my cyclopedia.

This few weeks was rough.

I need help.

I am in need to express, but I just realise I have no one to turn to anymore. Well, no one in my "budget" to be exact. I'm broke, I can't topup my phone. Those whom will give me good advice is using Maxis. For goodness sake why can't you guys just permanently convert to this bloody cheap Celcom?

I hate sharing what's mine.

I hate it when others depends on what's mine.

Baby if we're not careful, you know we'll lose what we have right now.

I'm not like any other girl(or maybe I am, I don't know I've never dated a girl), I am by far more stubborn than any other person I have met. I am a pessimist, I can't stop my mind from thinking what's not. When I'm mad, I'll keep it inside. Don't force it out, I'll end up swearing and talking shits.

What I've always wanted is easy, and Chuck Palahniuk has summarized it all into this favourite quotation of mine.

"What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody.Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego and my attention. Somebody addicted to me, a mutual addiction."

I don't think we have that.

Randomshits.

2010-07-22T00:52:00.001+08:00

Hutang satu monthlyversary entry dengan Huncyclopedia and I don't feel like writing that now.

I have Eco class first thing tomorrow and I'm pretty sure am gonna get headache by 9.30 am.

I cried watching Rascal Flatts video, it reminds me of how I felt when I lose Ilyas.

I can't control my anger as usual.

I have to drive to class regularly now.

I spent my previous weekend at campus. -_-

I can't type a text messages without swearing cos the phone keypads forced me to.

I have an orange kitten named Alpha.

I finally get my Blossoming Romance perfume after months of hunting. It's preloved, but still...

I'm not in a good term with him.

I met a schoolmate from SK Wangsa Jaya in campus. Wow kan?

I can't stop kinging now, thanks to you.

I'm broke.

I need a life.

I hate getting too attached to a guy.

I don't have a phone charger, it was struck by lightning. I really don't give a fuck about that now.

Ex boyfriend have a ticket to world stage, it's a matter of going with him or not going at all, at least for now that's the only option I have.

I want an Iphone.

2010-07-13T18:49:00.004+08:00

Aku dah tak faham apa function aku jadi girlfriend kau.

Getting out of comfort zone.

2010-07-07T00:54:00.000+08:00

Is hard and very very very depressing.
After around two months being around my backbones: the boyfriend, Malaccarians, Shnzles and others, saying goodbye is just hard. Boyfriend came over for lunch at my place on Saturday and after a while he said goodbye and left. Went to Ikea later with Farah and met Alya, Thiya, Awin and Suzi there since they're buying things for their "rumah mahal". Then while we were having dinner, Dee called saying that she's gonna leave very soon and she just thought of saying goodbye while some of my other girls texted to inform me that they're leaving or whether they had arrived. And there was this goodbye moment with Alya Thiya and Farah. It was.. a very sad moment for me because I know that I'm gonna be left alone in Shah Alam again. In fact, it was devastating. Too many goodbyes in a day is just not healthy okay people?

If I was still in Malacca, it sucks when semester break ends and I had to go back to Malacca but at least I have a reason to go back there. I have my girls and my boyfriend there but it's different this semester because none of my backbones is here except for my family and it sucks. So much.

But anyway, I have 5 classes a week this semester and Tuesday is my day off. The class is planning to move the Friday class to Wednesday and I hope we managed to do that because then I would have two days off and I won't have to go to campus almost everyday. Okay enough rambling. I was glad to start studying again but it's too bad that two of the most okay-est person in class moved to the other class. :(

Okay back to the getting out of the comfort zone topic. I have problem dealing with it especially things with Mr. boyfriend. It's just so hard i don't even know if it's working out. Pray for us.

Sedar tak?

2010-06-28T02:20:00.000+08:00

Kadang-kadang we're connected to certain people because of other certain people. Jadi bila orang tengah tu hilang, tiba-tiba kau pun kehilangan certain people yang kau kenal through that orang tengah tu sebab entah things gt awkward.

Jadi hello kamu-kamu yang dulu.
Whatever it is, I know you're watching me and you know pretty damn well that I'm watching you and we still have something in common.

Rindu.
Towards him and towards ourselves.
Love.

Sixteen

2010-06-26T23:42:00.001+08:00

Dah lama kat draft, cuma baru teringat nak post. Tengok, kita busy shopping barang rumah on our sixteenth monthlyversary. :)

Eh takpe la awak,

2010-06-26T23:13:00.001+08:00

kita dah jauh hati.

Take a loot at our blogshop!

2010-06-19T15:02:00.000+08:00

http://www.clothempire.blogspot.com/

Okay tengok tengok!

2010-06-12T23:36:00.003+08:00

Blog dah cantik. Haha. :)
Bulat2 kat background reminds me of Ilyas sebab dulu2 kan benda tu macam trend semua orang nak letak kat myspace punya background, kat comments or mana2 kan. Then kitorang gaduh2 siapa punya lagi cantik. Dia bagi I menang of course lepastu dah kalah dia letak kotak2 colorful kat his myspace and dia rasa dia punya lagi hebat sebab boleh blink2. It's still there pun anyway. And yeah kotak2 awak hebat :')

So let's just not go there again. Anyway, I miss my pedia!

Tersentap.

2010-06-09T01:21:00.000+08:00

Bila terjumpa profile mak dia, nampak gambar mereka.

Langsung buat aku berfikir.

2010-06-04T23:40:00.000+08:00

I was doing my so called "life-planning" when I thought hey, I'm actually studying for degree. It is after this that I'm gonna find a job and probably juggle with Masters at the same time.

How time flies.
Sigh.

Resah.

2010-06-02T03:33:00.000+08:00

Dear brain,

Remind me again on how I could forgive him after what he did and why I keep on remembering about it almost everyday.

Dear heart,

Let me know why you still can accept that guy after what he did. Is it true that he's the one or am I just being tricked by godknowswhat.

Dear instinct,

I don't know if I should believe you or not. Knowing him, I don't think he would ever do such things but knowing guys, nothing is impossible.

Dear Hani Shamira Shahrudin,

Sometimes too much logic skills and negativity could harm yourself. A couple of years back, you made yourselves believe that there's no one that can actually take care of you. Please please please don't ever change that perspective cos it will still remain the same.

Sensitivity.

2010-06-01T20:01:00.002+08:00

Holiday had been treating me nice, thanks to my guy, the girls from Melaka, Dee, Aiman and whoever else.
Tidak tahu apa nak ditulis. Mungkin cuma tentang sesuatu that I had experienced while I was working.

Saturday;
Was doing sampling as usual, there was one guy yang datang rasa so macam okay suka hati lah. Then dia mula tanya itu ini. Aku dah malas nak jawab benda yang sama all over again, aku kata aku dah kahwin. Thought that it will stop him from bertanya2 questions yang takmasuk dalam job scope aku, tapi tidak pula. Dia mula tanya tentang husband. Ya, hari tu, dosa menipu aku berkilo-kilo. Pastu dia blah.

Sunday;
Spot the same fucking guy among the crowd. Aku dah mula mencarut2 dalam hati hoping that he won't come near tapi harapan je la, tiba2 dia berdiri betul2 sebelah aku sampai bahu boleh terkena bahu. Aku jadi tak selesa terus aku take one step back jauh sikit dari sialan tu. Dia sambung tanya soalan semalam, macam sial. Then tanya aku ada anak tak? I was like wtf? No? Then dia mula kata "kenapa takda? Dah kahwin takda anak? Takboleh nak beranak ke?"

Jawapan aku masa tu, kau pergi mampus. Lepas tu blah pergi booth Enfagrow sebab rasa lebih safe kat situ daripada sorang2 kat booth aku dengan orang yang irrational and sikit tidak ada sensitivity. Perlu ke tanya orang tak boleh beranak ke? Cantik sikit la. Mungkin tidak betul kat aku, tapi kalau kat orang yang memang betul2 takboleh nak beranak taknak menangis pula dia kat situ? Aku sendiri pun macam OUCH gila bila dia tanya macam tu.

Jadi tolong, kalau nak bertanya kat orang tu sila guna otak. Itu pun kalau ada.

150 juta.

2010-05-31T04:19:00.004+08:00

“sayang mungkin baran tak kira masa
tapi sayang tahan kalau salahnya saya
sayang mungkin saja keras kepala
tapi sayang manja bila kita berdua–

saya kenal sayang saya”

-FJ

A day with the kids :)

2010-05-19T21:12:00.000+08:00

That's Emil, the sepet one!

And that's Emil's sister, the pretty Rania.

Rania's, mine, and Trisya's drawing. Not much differences between mine and Trisy's though -__-

Haha that's mine and Hariz's Rapunzel!

Triya's the one who's taking the picture. I love them, seriously. And can't you see that I'm getting good with kids? Well that's an impressive improvement!

Hello boy, I miss you.

2010-05-19T00:46:00.000+08:00

Shut up. I miss him.

Even when you look so comot, I knew it was you that I wanted to take care of. :)

And that was our very first picture together baby!

I have no idea why you were so grumpy at that time, but it makes me love you more.

After a while, you started playing with me. Digging that thin claws of yours everywhere and biting me here and there.

Oh this was our first morning together. I remember waking up at 7a.m. just to make sure that you were okay when at the night before you won't let me sleep even after 4a.m. since you had already sleep before that.

Hiccy's doing the ay-ayy-sir gesture.

He's so small :(

Santa's beard!

Oh and a cute hamster, too!

He was just like an inseparable tumor that moves around my body.

My little attention seeker that won't let me concentrate on my study too! :)

See?

He even hold on to the highlighter.

Back from the first meeting from the vet. The vet is scared that he will got a fit disease, paralyzing syndrome or something like that. Didn't know that it is actually gonna happen. Hmm.

That night that he left.

I'm so sorry darling. I don't know where I went wrong. I took care of you like a spoil little baby, I spoon-feed you, I toilet trained you, I bring you everywhere I go and when I went out I make sure Ibu or Ayah takes good care of you. I just want to see you grow up but I didn't get the chance. I want to see you running around the house, up and down the stairs but God seems to take you away from me too soon.

Thank you for being a part of my life Hiccy, even if it was just for a while. I will always remember you darling :)

Fifteen.

2010-05-18T14:43:00.001+08:00

Happy fifteen months, love.

The spell has not been broken, I still love you. It does not changed the fact that what you did wrong will always be remembered. If at times, I freaked out, let me. Cos what you did was...disgusting.

Thanks for the surprise, it's not perfect cos you were not there though.

2010-05-11T00:27:00.000+08:00

Harini aku belajar satu tahap kemarahan yang baru. Terlalu marah, sampai aku menggigil, sampai boleh menjerit sampai boleh menangis depan kau. Tak pernah sekali pun aku sampai ke tahap ini jadi aku nak ucapkan tahniah kat kau sebab berjaya buat aku discover that I can reach that certain level that I feel so numb I can't even feel anything. No, not hurt, not the anger, not the feeling of betrayal, just numbness.

Apa pun alasan kau, you don't have any reason why you did not talk to me about it in the first place.
Kenapa bila sampai jadi macam ni baru nak berterus-terang?
Kalau aku takcheck phone kau sampai bila lagi kau nak teruskan?

Konon nak text kakak, as if I don't know you were deleting messages.

Enough with the deleting things la. Seteruk2 aku kawan dengan lelaki/perempuan lain at least aku ada juga jujur.

Thanks again, for making me reach this level dan sebab kau buat aku hancur lebih teruk dari yang dulu-dulu.

A friend of mine asked me my ambition;

2010-05-05T01:50:00.002+08:00

And I told him that. Boleh tercapai?
Haha.

It's not about that,

2010-05-02T01:20:00.001+08:00

It's about trust.

Why do I have to be the one that value our relationship when he doesn't?
If he thinks of himself as who he is, he wouldn't even think of doing it at the first place
.
So really, I don't see how it is my fault okay?
Me being stubborn has nothing to do about this, it was his attitude problem. The one you spoils so much.

Seriously, if that time he just said that he doesn't have it, I wouldn't be this hard.

2010-04-22T20:59:00.004+08:00

In the past few posts, I had been saying that am gonna start updating my blog, posting entries, yadayadayada but you haven't seen anything posted right? Sebenarnya banyak yang aku dah tulis, cuma tak post, terbiar dalam draft. Sebab semua benda yang aku nak cerita, aku tak dapat nak cerita betul-betul. Maybe the same will go with this one, we'll see.

Truth is, I don't know what I wanna write about this time. Just the matter of letting things go. Aku banyak sakit for this past couple of months. Banyak sangat tapi as usual I swallow things up. Tapi this few days makin bertambahtambah, apa benda ni? Called Farah to talk to her and god I miss them girls so much. I miss having them around all the time, to be able to hug them and cry on their shoulder when things go wrong.I know I fucked up when I choose to be in Shah Alam but it doesn't matter anymore, i guess that's whats best for my study.

............................... banyak lagi benda tapi masih takdapat cerita betulbetul. Cuma satu aku minta, God, if you're not gonna make this easier, just make me stronger than I had always been.

Fuck it. Can't wait for the PD vacation.

formspring.me

2010-04-20T03:09:00.001+08:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/hshnzle

Mostly about the busy week

2010-04-17T13:24:00.002+08:00

Komen merepek2 promote product untuk penis enlargement dah memenuhi ruang komen, satu tanda aku dah kena sangat update blog ni.

Minggu busy sudah habis, lega.
My group buat fashion show untuk promote songket, lengkap dengan red carpet dan disco ball serta lighting.. It was by far the coolest presentation I had ever make. We won the best presentation. :) Our group juga dapat full mark for sociology group discussion, thank god. And that assignment I did on deviance, yang esok kena hantar malam tu aku seronok pergi lepak pergi shisha semua dapat 9/10. Well now u know why I love Pn Massila. Oh and the 2oo questions yang aku takut gila tu, tiba2 Munis Paran bagi 15o questions je. I got 118/15o. Considering that I suck in modern issues, that mark is more than enough for me.

The first paper is two weeks away, memberi ruang lebih cukup untuk aku bernafas. Aku ada banyak cerita, nanti I'll write a proper post pasal those topic tu yeah.

Fourteen.

2010-04-14T14:22:00.006+08:00

Happy fourteen.

There's nothing much to say, let's just cherish the moment we have. Like what you said, it's not like we know what the future is going to be like. Kalau ada jodoh I dengan you ada lah kan. Hm. Till the next month. Oh wait, let's not think about the future hun.

2010-04-11T17:03:00.000+08:00

I have a speech and a test on Monday, discussions with Massila, presentation on songket and submission of baby dumping issues on Tuesday, and two tests on Friday.
Plus a few issues I have to deal with everyday.

Tolong cepat habis minggu ini, I just want to cry and let it all go.

oh come on

2010-04-09T22:09:00.000+08:00

I'm a girl and I understand very well. But I'm not even a little interested in your boyfriend so the jealousy is not needed at all. I have my own guy to take care of, and he's certainly a thousand times better than your guy. I hope you're reading!

Loveeeeee!

hello dear blog,

2010-04-08T16:16:00.000+08:00

I miss you. I'll start posting again when I'm less busy okay baby? Love.

Need.

2010-03-30T17:23:00.002+08:00

A guy that appreciates me and is not embarrass to introduce me as his girl to others.

Yeah, jealous tengok some people's boyfriend punya FB profile, almost every picture dengan their girl and status about them, things like that.

Ignore me, saja nak demand2.

Azrul Hanaffi.

2010-03-29T22:51:00.001+08:00

"tak ada orang yang kenal saya macam awak kenal saya...
saya sunyi tanpa awak...
awak satu2nya kawan baik saya.."

Fynn Jamal.

almost every year after 2006, on March 27 and October 17

2010-03-29T22:45:00.000+08:00

God makes me forget the date.

March 27 is the day he was born and October 17 is the date he was taken away.
Almost every year, I will remember the day 2-3 days before the actual date but during the day, I'll forgot all about it. Mungkin Dia taknak I sakit?

Thanks anyway, love.

Berjalan without P.

2010-03-21T21:32:00.000+08:00

On 16th March, P aku habis. Jadi sekarang aku takperlu lekat sticker merah di depan dan belakang kereta tu ye? Pagi tadi aku bangun dengan semangat membara nak pergi KL sebab Ibu dah kata dari haritu today kita pergi. Then tiba2 harini dia cancel. Pfft.

Being me, kalau dah set my mind untuk keluar aku akan nak keluar juga no matter what so aku minta kunci kat Shen then gerak pergi Curve, alone. Oh not forgetting aku dah macam ikan panggang kena migraine dalam kereta Shen tu since aircond dia tu entah apa kena. Sumpah lepas 15-20 minit aku pusing parking Curve tu, dapat keluar kereta rasa heaven gila.

Main objective aku keluar cuma satu, nak cari something to wear untuk White Garden Party this weekend. Entah kenapa macam excited nak cari dress? Haritu aku jumpa 1 dress kat KL tu, tapi takbeli sebab ingat macam ala nak pakai pergi mana pun. Then sampai2 Curve, aku pun semangat2 try2 baju and bila masuk Nichii, i saw something like what I was looking for, it's something like this;

ignore the face, please. Ahah, I like it! Suka the bawah2 tu and it's a-not-so-long-dress so I could wear it with a cardigan on that night. Kalau knee length dress nanti nak kena pakai leggings la, cardigan la macam wah meriah betul kan. Maklum la, saya budak Uitm kena setutup boleh.
Tapi I did not buy this one sebab I don't like the color, and the one I found earlier is much cheaper so maybe I'll get that one anytime this week.

I LOVE this one but I hate the sleeves. Hodoh gila on me.

Poyo je try2 dress but in the end I only bought a cute Tshirt. ;P

choosing a topic;

2010-03-21T00:54:00.000+08:00

I have an informative speech to be given on this Monday. For the last 24 hours+, I had been thinking about what topic should I choose and a few topics came across my mind such as the history of Maine Coon, the art of Body Piercing, and Male and Female communication differences. After asking a few people about my topic, they mostly agree that art of body piercing might not be the perfect one even though that is the easiest topic for me since I have a deep interest in piercing while Communication differences got the most votes. However, the time given is only 3-5minutes and with loads of information about that topic plus I don't feel like I'm credible enough to talk about that, I pass. Then Lana's guy came out with an idea about Earth Hour and guess what? I think it's perfect, plus this year's Earth Hour is coming in only a few days.

I just completed my slides, let's hope I would talk like a communicator this Monday okay?

sweetness.

2010-03-20T23:56:00.003+08:00

i would love to know who you are, anon?

susah bila budak masscomm couple dengan budak masscomm.

2010-03-19T21:28:00.000+08:00

Sebab bila kau belajar communication, kau akan taw bila cara kau berkomunikasi itu salah dan mungkin akan menimbulkan miskomunikasi and things like that. Bila benda macam ni jadi, kau susah nak buat degil sebab kau taw itu bukan salah satu dari cara berkomunikasi.

Tapi biarlah kalau sekali-sekala murtad masscomm kan,

Hardheaded.

2010-03-15T20:37:00.000+08:00

I am programmed to think logically, with my head not my heart. That is why I'm here and you guys are there.

Did we grow old or are we just getting bored with each other?

2010-03-15T04:13:00.001+08:00

Lately aku perasan banyak benda yang buat aku berfikir "Kenapa? Did we grow old or are we just getting bored with each other?" Isu rawak. Bukan hanya pasal boyfriend tapi includes kawan2 sekeliling aku juga.

Honestly, I have lots of issues lately tapi aku pilih untuk ignore, diam sendiri. Tapi tadi something agak macam triggered my anger and I just feel the need to express, so here I am.

Amek benda paling mudah, kenapa benda-benda yang kita pernah buat dulu-dulu kita rarely buat lagi sekarang? Diam. Jangan cakap kalau buat selalu nanti bosan. Aku taw tu, aku pun pandai fikir. Tapi kalau dengan orang yang kau betul2 sayang, betul2 kau care about? Betul la orang kata, kalau nak seribu daya kalau taknak seribu dalih kan. Kalau kau tanya balik kat orang tu kenapa kita dah rarely buat benda tu dia mesti bagi kau macam2 alasan. Padahal kalau dulu boleh je?

Contoh kalau one guy baru couple pastu mula2 tu every night dia call girlfriend dia before tido then mark my words, soon akan makin kurang makin kurang hingga ke text je. Takpun kalau member baik kau dulu tiap2 hari akan update kat kau pasal life dia, kemudian dari tiap2 hari akan mula berkurang jadi minggu2 dan kemudian taw2 kau akan dapat text/ call dari dia masa relationship dia dah hancur, masa dia susah nak buat assignment, masa dia nak minta tolong.

You decide, bgtaw aku kenapa situations yang aku bagi ni happen? Did they grow up or are they just getting bored with each other?

Lepastu tadi someone tegur aku "ala baru-baru boleh la, lama2 nanti tengok la cane". Bila aku tanya kau one day will we get bored with each other, kau bagi aku satu jawapan yang takpasti. Heh. Heh. Heh. Betul la kata someone kan, mungkin betul. Memang semua manusia akan bosan dengan manusia lain. Jadi dekat mana cinta tu sebenarnya, dekat mana sayangnya, dekat mana nilai persahabatannya?

Yeah, mungkin mereka sudah bosan.

Dan sudahlah, aku dah penat. Kalau aku hilang, korang jangan cari aku.

thirteen.

2010-03-15T00:03:00.001+08:00

We passed our first year Yang, gila hebat kan kita?

I think I had been bullying you this month, sorry Yang.
I made you buy me the trio rings oh not forgetting bawa you pusing the whole Pyramid trying to find the perfect one but end up beli dekat kedai yang first kita masuk je.
Then I made you makan Shabu2 with me when the food is......ergh.
Then I buat you jealous with gay tua tu(according to you).
Then I made you watch Alice with me.
Then I suka merajuk bila you nak pergi jogging sebab you tinggal I. Even if it's for a while, taksuka because I cepat miss you.
Then I suruh you bawa I pergi i-city tapi lepastu malas nak jalan cari penguin haha.

Hee thank you for putting up with me sayang, thank you for loving me. If you dah taktahan dengan mengada I ingat taw, you're the only one I wanna mengada with.
I love you. let's head up for our fourteenth month!

pointless.

2010-03-13T01:15:00.000+08:00

lately jam biologikal aku rosak.semalam lepas bird park aku tidur dari pukul 4p.m., bangun kejap bila boyfriend call, beberapa text then aku tertido balik sampai petang harini. bangun untuk beberapa jam lepastu tertido balik. then bangun and taksampai one hour dah mengantuk balik. gila. gila.

dan aku lapar.

nature.

2010-03-11T21:21:00.000+08:00

This past two days had been hectic. Spent my Wednesday at Taman Pertanian Malaysia trying to finish our group assignment for field trip but we only managed to do a shoot for me and Epul and have to come back later to finish Emy's. I had never been to Taman Pertanian before and gosh, the view is awesome. We only have to pay 3 bucks to get in and there's a lot of tamans in there and I love the four season house, it's no doubt. It makes our face look flawless when we took picture! Haha and there's this one kuda gatal nak meng-nibble2, bite2 geram saja. Minus the sun and headache, it was gooood. We went to Fradoo for ABC right after that. It was a pure bliss. Went back to Melati with a headache, took my shower and it started to rain at that them. And that was heaven. ;D

Today, helped TBI since they're having a trip to bird& deer park. There was this one guy, Shirhan that caught my eyes. Dia comel gila okay suka dekat2 dengan aku, nak makan pun cari aku, nak jalan pun cari aku, nak toilet pun suruh aku teman and then nak balik tu dia cakap nak salam then hug aku! Awwww. Lepastu dia kata nanti esok kakak datang lagi shirhan bawakan sweets taw then I told him that I'm not gonna be there everyday pun since I'm studying. Then muka dia sedih je dia kata nanti bila kakak dah habis sekolah kakak datang la. Isn't that the cutesssssssssst?! Rasa macam nak bawa balik je :(

opps terbaca.

2010-03-10T00:45:00.000+08:00

What's your name spelt backwards?
Inah arimahs. watafak hahahaha

What did you do last night?
Jalan2 pergi i-city, lepak mamak

The last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
Entah lupa dh?

Last time you swam in a pool?
Can't remember la

What are you wearing?
My boyfriend's shirt

How many cars have you owned?
Takde oh

Type of music you dislike most?
Hardcore.

Are you registered to vote?
Not yet.

Do you have cable?
Semua jenis cable i ada. haha

Ever made a prank phone call?
The last one was probably the rumah sewa kat tempat syed tu hahaha so yes anyway

You like anyone right now?
Very much.

Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
Both pleaseeee?! nak try!

Furthest place you ever traveled?
Guangzhou la kot

What's your favorite comic strip?
Calvin and Hobbes

Do u know all the words to the national anthem?
Of course lah!

Shower, morning or night?
Both,

Best movie you've seen in the past month?
Nada.

Favorite pizza toppings?
Pepperoni kot.

Chips or popcorn?
Both.

What cell phone provider do you have?
Celcom.

Have you ever smoked peanut shells?
Oh tidak.

Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?
Tidak juga.

Orange Juice or apple?
Orange.

Who were the last people you sat at lunch with?
Faiz, Man, Ain.

Favorite chocolate bar?
Smua.

Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
Never!

Have you ever won a trophy?
Haha yes.

Favorite arcade game?
Air hockey ke apa nama die.

Ever ordered from an infomercial?
Macam pernah je

Sprite or 7-UP?
7.

Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school/work?
11 years man.

Ever thrown up in public?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?
A millionaire.

Do you believe in love at first sight?
Yes.

SPONGEBOB OR JIMMY NEUTRON?
Spongebob.

Did you have long hair as a young kid?
Not very long though

What message is on your voicemail machine?
Xd pun

Where would you like to go right now?
Dresshunting

Whats the name of your pet?
Makhitam

What kind of back pack do you have, and what's in it?
I don't have back packs anymore.

What do you think about most?
Myself and my future

so much for nak update everyday kan.

2010-03-10T00:24:00.001+08:00

Well, I guess failed to update daily. Ahah, anyway, I gt my sociology result today and it was hell. Thank god we managed to persuade Madam to retake the essay. Sumpah I love you madam. Sat for Thinking and Writing test today and I was dead nervous before the exam, god knows why. Turn out the exam was quite okay, just a bit tricky and the funniest part is that Miss Mimi had created 3 sets of exam papers and when Ain asked me question about cognitive, turned out that mine is about affective. That was when we find out. Cool gila, kalau aku lecturer memang macam tu la aku buat. Hahaha. And guess what, in one of those question we had to come out with our own metaphor about writing and mine is Writing is not like beauty, it never fade. HAHA watafak, i know.

Anyway, I went to I-city yesterday and the view was awesome. I would love to update some photos but I'm too lazy to get my cable. Haha macamana nak kurus macam Christine ni! Die la hun.

I have a field trip photoshoot tomorrow, takut takut!

2010-03-04T12:50:00.003+08:00

Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it. -Thomas Fuller

I feel bad.

2010-03-04T11:59:00.002+08:00

Kill me, for making you stay up but then I fell asleep. Woke up this morning and I know I wanted to hear your voice but remembering yesterday, I think I'd rather pass. I don't wanna wake you up from your beauty sleep and kasar2 dengan I.

Hee honestly, I prefer to sleep before him and wake up after he does. That way I won't feel like I'm missing anything.

I bought myself a liquid paper two weeks ago.

2010-03-03T20:59:00.005+08:00

Yea, liquid. Mungkin bagi kamu ala beli liquid pun nak kecoh? Tapi for me it means something else because it's my very first liquid paper I've ever bought. Taktipu, the whole time I was in high school aku takpernah beli liquid sebab aku tak rasa beli liquid tu satu keperluan bila aku boleh potong je ayat yang aku salah or if I'm desperate for liquid aku boleh je minta kat Eza yang duduk sebelah aku, or bila kat melaka aku rapat juga la dengan classmates aku so bila exam passing2 liquid paper tu semua memang xd hal pun kan.

In other words, aku depend sangat dengan orang lain.

Tapi since aku masuk Shah Alam aku start beli liquid, equipped my pencilbox with stapler, glue, scissors semua benda la kalau kau buka pencil box aku memang confirm kau akan jumpa semua stationaries needed. Sebab bagi aku, kat Shah Alam aku takde sape2. Faham tak? Since the first day I was in induk I learned to survive by my own.

Ramai orang taw aku ada phobia nak melintas jalan tapi ramai juga yang perasan, aku dah makin pandai lintas jalan. Aku ingat lagi the first time aku pergi class sorang, it took me quite a while to gather my courage and melintas jalan yang busy dengan kereta nak ke tangga tinggi tu. After a while, I got used to it. Dulu2, everytime aku sampai class aku nampak ada je yang pandang aku muka sympathetic gila sambil tanya "diorang takdatang lagi?" sebab ye la, kesian tengok aku sorang2 takde kawan kot. Tapi sebenarnya aku tak kisah pun, aku akan rasa lagi awkward kalau kau tiba2 datang duduk sebelah aku try nak berborak2 dengan aku. Tapi tu dulu, sekarang aku makin okay kot dengan classmates, boleh pergi makan, lepak sekali.

Maybe u don't understand what I'm trying to say here. Aku cuma nak cakap certain orang kata aku sombong, selfish sume sebab aku rather beli semua stationaries, taruh nyawa lintas jalan(eceh macam bahaya sangat je melintas tu) sume dari call classmates ajak pergi class sama so that diorang boleh lintaskan aku sekali or minta je pinjam barang dari diorang. Entah, maybe apa yang kau cakap betul, tapi mungkin aku bukan macam sesetengah orang yang senang nak bergaul. Itu kekurangan aku dan mungkin itu cara aku untuk train myself not to depend on people too much(this does not include azrul sebab aku suka je nak depend kat dia sangat haha).

Tapi aku tak kisah kalau korang nak pinjam stationaries aku, minta la :)

Disappointing you, disappointing me.

2010-03-02T21:19:00.003+08:00

Few days back, I created a Tumblr account but for now, I don’t think I’m gonna use it. I mean, don’t get me wrong, it’s really cool and what attracts me the most is how it can be connected to Facebook. Damn cool la wei. Tapi for now I think I would rather stick with just one blog which is this one since it would be easier for me to keep track of things because looking back, my main reasoning when I was creating this blog is for me to revise about things that I’ve done earlier. So yeah, goodbye Tumblr.. for now.

Anyway, let’s talk about my day. I had sociology exam today and to be honest, I am very disappointed with myself. Come on, this is supposed to be a revision semester why can’t I even answer a simple essay about socialization. Then it was thinking and writing class, we had fun making review for the short stories and yes some of my classmates can really express themselves. I am mostly interested in how Reid voices out his opinion though, he talks based on Islamic perspective and he did say something like “saya boleh nak keluarkan hadis dan ayat al-Quran tapi kalau boleh taknak la kan,” when he was “counter-attacking” Yasir but still, gila la wei! Maybe I’m not one of those very Islamic people you have ever met but people like Reid always gave me the WOW feeling.

I have a Thinking and Writing exam next week, I’m so gonna start studying now. Can't afford to disappoint myself again.

i think i need to update my blog.

2010-02-25T15:55:00.004+08:00

It's a lonely day as usual, plus the fact that I'm broke I can't even afford to top up my phone, andd being left by my parents at home while they are in PD. That leads me to watch Radit dan Jani till the end and fuck, the movie is damn sad la wei. :'( nak radit nak radit!

dah whatever, i need to find myself a sugardaddy.

2010-02-19T23:45:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wonder why did you leave so soon, because every time i try to recall about people that could bear with me, you're always the only one.

i miss you. :(